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[23 Sep 2009|10:10am] |
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They say absances makes the heart grow fonder...and u miss some one more when u dont spend as much time with them...what a load of crap!! Im pretty sure that totally back fired on me...thanks a lot love gods..u suck.
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| WOW! |
[22 Sep 2009|11:54pm] |
So 2 years later and I am writting in this thing...lol
I spend the past 3 days with stephanie...and we decided to look back on these...man were we lame when we were 16...haha...we were in love with so many different boys..and none of them really stayed around.
I am sitting dating Ryan Day and have been for 2 and a half years..man i love that boy!!
Fernando married Ryan's ex girlfriend...too creepy for words!!
Makayla is now 4 and went to her first day of school last week..i cried.
James is still gay..lol
Dustin is still my boo!!
I still love Danny.
I still dont talk to Sara.
I still dont see Bary nearly enough.
I fo sho dont love or miss Carl anymore...hahaha loser.
And im still emo as fuck...and love and hate my boyfriend all in the same day...
So pretty much in the past two years nothing has changed..how fucking lame am i? lol
Love.
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| hmm yea |
[24 Oct 2007|10:24pm] |
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Deathcab for cutie- you reminde me of home |
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I haven't wrote in here in what seems like forever...but really what is the point? no one ever reads this crap anymore...and everytime any one ever writes in it is when it is sad or something bad happenes so what is the point?
In the past 3 months..i have been in love, had my heart broken, and fallen back in love all over again...it was the worst 3 months of my life so far.
I don't think i have ever felt this way about another human in my life and that scares me more than i think anything could. I look at that amazing face everyday and fall more in love with him than the mintue before...
i thought things would be hard to be in another long term thing again...after being in one for 3 1/2 years and then pretty much getting right into another...but this is the most amazing thing that i think could of ever happened...and with the most amazing person i have ever met in my life..
i guess that's all i pretty much want to write about.
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| your my biggest downfall |
[24 Aug 2007|12:01am] |
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I haven't wrote in this thing in what seems like forever...maybe cuz it has been forever.
I went to NYC that was amazing and i really miss it and hope to go back some day soon since i know alot more about it now.
Buddy had to be put to sleep back in april....that sucked really bad as well...we got a new stupid dog named sadie....she is cute though...just super dumb.
I work at target...it's ok i guess...nothing too exciting...it's a job...
I don't really have any friends anymore...that's my own fault though...i still hang out with bary and james every now and then...not as nearly as much as i would like to though...thoes boys are the best!! We had a birthday party for them not that long ago...i got super drunk it was pretty sweet...i got to see nando which was sweet as well.
Steph and i don't really talk as much...or really at all i guess...that sucks super bad...she moved away from the area...not that we really talked much before she moved anyway...i miss her alot...all the time... i miss our bedroom talks...that sounds dirty...lol.
I'm going to florida in a couple of weeks here...it should be ok i guess...i'm really hoping to get to see doug cornwall...but i don't have anything planned...i have no idea where i am staying....i have no idea how i am getting around...all i pretty much know is that i am getting on a plane and flying there...wow that's lame...and i also have like no money saved up and that is lame as well...
Well i think i am going to go now cuz i am at ryan's and he wants to take me home now...maybe i will start writting in this thing again...who knows...untill then...
Crystal
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| tears.... |
[16 May 2007|10:17pm] |
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don't u hate it when u know u messed up and there is nothing u can do to fix it...yea it sucks
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[16 Oct 2006|12:04am] |
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i would like to say ur worth it...but ur really not...how fucking sad is that?
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| you do something to me... |
[23 Sep 2006|02:44pm] |
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I have been thinking about the past alot...and i don't think it's so much that i miss the people from my past...just the memories and moments i had with the people...i really miss the feeling of knowing some one loves me and would do anything for me...i dunno i'm just in a really emo mood lately...i'm lame...i know
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| hello out there?!? |
[23 Sep 2006|12:52am] |
Does any 1 even read lj anymore? or is myspace too over rated?
Life works in funny ways...u loose something and feel like your world is going to come to an end when really...it's just starting something new and better. You might have lost the only person you thought you could ever love...but really the reason you lost them is because there is some one else out there that you will love ten million times more and will make you that much happier. It's not the best thing to realize this is how things work...or that it takes so much time and heart ache to learn this...but hopefully in the end it will all work out for the best.
I have found my soulmate....the person i can think something and he knows what it is before i even say it and says it for me. The person i want to spend every waking and sleeping moment...the person i can't stand to sleep without...the person who's heart beat and breathing makes me feel safe enough to sleep...the person who has opend my mind and heart to so many new and exciting things. the only person i can just lay there with and stare at a wall and be happy....this person is my best friend...he may not feel the same way...but hopefully one day he will realize that his soul mate and happiness has been right in front of him the whole time...untill then i will sit and he the best friend that he needs while he tries to find another girl that will make him happy...then it might be too late...
GOD I'M SO FUCKING EMO!
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| ryan day :) |
[17 Aug 2006|09:07pm] |
"Your Heart Is An Empty Room"
Burn it down till the embers smoke on the ground
And start new when your heart is an empty room
With walls of the deepest blue
Home's face: how it ages when you're away
Spring blooms and you find the love that's true
But you don't know what now to do
Cause the chase is all you know
And she stopped running months ago
And all you see
Is where else you could be
When you're at home
Out on the street
Are so many possibilities
To not be alone
The flames and smoke climbed out of every window
And disappeared with everything that you held dear
And you shed not a single tear for the things that you didn't need
'Cause you knew you were finally free
'Cause all you see is where else you could be when you're at home
Out on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
And all you see is where else you could be
When you're at home
There on the street are so many possibilities to not be alone
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[11 Aug 2006|02:19am] |
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butch walker-best thing u never had |
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does it ever get better or are boys this dumb for the rest of their sorry lifes?
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| easy fuck...what?!? |
[01 Aug 2006|01:00pm] |
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The Shins |
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James Robert Worsham is the most amazing boy ever...and we are going to have babies...and name them Mike hunt...and Hairy Richard....cuz we are sweet like that.
Today James and I are going to a concert and it's going to be really hot and I'm sure we will die. It will be fun though so that is all that matters.
BRAKING NEWS!!!/ I'm an easy fuck...as I was told last night, by Carl.
Yea well that is all...I have to go do some stuff with Ryan Day before I go to the concert....bye
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| events from last night... |
[29 Jul 2006|12:28pm] |
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Sitting at a school..playing on the swings... sitting in subway for two hours with nothing to do...moping, cleaning tables and doing dishes...for free food and such. dancing in the parking lot.
"Crystal has the strong legs muscles, so she could ride me all night long."
"I'd let him top me."
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[27 Jul 2006|11:18pm] |
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Are dumb and should all just kill themselfs....that is all....
James is amazing and he is here till next week...should be a hoot...we are going to a concert on tuesday...butch walker...should be sweet....
This point was pointless...besides the fact that boys are dumb.
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| looking back... |
[19 Jul 2006|01:49pm] |
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I realize how much in life i really missed out on when i was with carl...i mean that not in a mean way...i mean all we did was pretty much sit and do nothing...it was pretty lame...we didn't hang out with any friends or anything...
Now all i do is hang out with friends and just take things for what they are...for the most part...i'm trying really hard at that...i guess pretty much what i am trying to say is i am pretty happy with the way life is right now...it's the happiest i have been in a long time...i love the people i am hanging out with and yea.
I am going to go now...maybe i will write in this thing in another million years.
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| Ryan Day |
[16 Jul 2006|11:59am] |
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Is pretty much the most amazing person I have ever met.
Yea that's pretty much all I do these days is hang out with Rayn...Lame right? No not really cuz it's the happiest i have been in a long time.
I want to see Dustin mother fucking Miller...RIGHT NOW!!!
I'm getting a $300 pay check tomorrow...i'm pumped...i'm sure it wont take me long to spend...
Yea i have to stop writting since Ryan is asking me 500 million questions about song.
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| FUCK CARS!!! |
[24 Jun 2006|03:53am] |
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I JUST SAT ON THE GOD DAMN SIDE OF THE ROAD FOR 3 FUCKING HOURS...BROKE DOWN!!! TRIPLE A NEVER FUCKING CAME!!!!! FUCK U TRIPLE A!!!
That is all.
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[09 Jun 2006|12:02pm] |
| Your Stress Level is: 75% | 
You are prone to stress, and you're probably even pretty stressed right now.
Life's problems seem to pile up on you, and this often makes you feel depressed and burned out.
Learn to take time to relax and enjoy life, even if things are stressful. It's the only wa you'll get through the bad times. |
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[17 Feb 2006|01:47am] |
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Dustin is fucking AMAZING that is all
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[04 Feb 2006|05:48pm] |
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another fun advanture with two dogs fucking, hairy bush and ripped vagina pants..u know how we do...
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[21 Jan 2006|12:48pm] |
| You Are 23 Years Old | 
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
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